Use your mind or it will be burden on ur neck!! "Black Swan"

Well subject don't have to do with this writing... but as it has been long I thought to write something...

While experimenting new kinda reading I came across a book called "black swan" well it is bit difficult to explain in short... ...and I feel like author is repeating the same thing all time... just giving his observations with different examples..

but at the end... it says .. as humans we assume that there is nothing called black swan (Its always white)... or something unusual... which may never happen
and when we see it.. we just take it as rare event... and can never imagine that with something else...

We always correlate things whether its stock prices... performance in your professional or studies or relationships...

and these comparison just lead us to theories which are always binding statements......
rare events like financial crashdown in recent times... or 26/11 who could have predicted or imagine that even 1 hr before it has happened?

Apart from all his trials to make the book interesting ; author has tried interesting examples stating how we correlate many events in our day to day life...

any ways its again one more school of thought for me... and others who would like to try this book... ultimately if we can implement it successfuly then it really matters.
Just another thought
"Sometimes man can meet his destiny by the road he used to avoid since long!! "

Roaming around ... part -1

"To wait for something takes all efforts and patience, "

This time its my luggage I am waiting for… well I was not alone waiting for it at arrivals part I wonder why I was being impatient… may be because there are 50 odd others waiting for their luggage and having same feeling… to get rid of waiting… thanks to Airindia…

“There is no old business … there are only old ways of doing business…. "

This should be tagline of AI, they believe in doing business with old ways only…
it have been wonderful experience with AI… those aunty or dadi like airhostess… the crew was even forgetting what to announce… mixture of English and hindi announcement…I used to sit in far better comfortable seats in bus transport than AI flight…and yea funniest thing was when I asked one of aunty airhostess what was announced she replied without smile “muje bhi nahi sunai diya” most of them were treating us like we were hostages... That made me pray please god make me reach home!!

well the journey has just begun….whenever alone I prefer to recall the past… its not that I stick to it… but there are always good and bad things…
its been said that “ Those who forget lessens from past are condemned to repeat them over and over again”
So I started remembering my earliest experience… happened in last few days…


passing through one of the most beautiful places on earth, hilly areas of Switzerland alpsss. Well this time I was passing throgh it on road not on flight so I had first time life time experience...

I don’t have English or gujarati words to describe beauty of the earth here… but let me try
green shades of trees dark, light… with shades of sunlight…spread across everywhere… there are small waterfalls cutting across these hills… the water has white color with seemingly cold in nature … here and there the watefalles were making white lines across all the

there were small villages far… very few homes… and with all colors.. red black.. orange…

I wonder how to say colors... but god has made it more beautiful than confusing..

nature has made shades of all green across the hills… and the breeze is filling up with all energy… worlds best ever perfume… I wonder where had I such smell… and yes it was there many times with me… only thing I realized it when I am with nature..

flowing is life… whether its waterfall or us… so we moved on again!!

snow on the hilltop was adding one more color to the nature … white.. yellow, green… far better than artificial colors…

its heavenly feeling to pass through alps… but there is more to come… may be next time…if readers like it... and if its getting boring I better keep it with myself…

Journey of life ... or ... life is journey - train to...

और लाएगी चमन में बागेबुलबुल बागेबहार,
गिर पड़ा जो साख से उसकी तरफ देखा न कर.

(reminds me of tree - leaf and wind story in my earlier bog!!)

It has been long time since I travelled in Indian railways and its always rejuvenating experiece.. specially when I travel in general class...

I tried to experiment it after long time since I had long weekend and wanted to have feeling again... not really general class I tried booking in reservation quota but it turn out to be same...

Full of people... doing up-down daily from morning to eve... from diversified group of people..trying everything under the sun in single compartment someone is reading others playing cards.. performing pooja and selling collectibles, trying to impressess others and what not??

Well the learning started from a girl... sitting alone and wondering why thre are other peoples without reservation while she has already made a booking... and the problem with somewhat pretty looking indian girl is they think everyone will get influenced by them... and to my surprise the guy sitting next to her was very much impressed!!! he and his friend on opposite side of compartment were trying to make poor joke of a poor child just to impress that girl... I wonder why??? its good to run after something... but bad to follow something blindly... and thts what these guys were after... poor guys they didnt notice signs of girl is already married and not interested at all... and I was more worried for child they were teasing

As it goes on we can feel the bond between two companions, fading away with the other leaving for his home, station goes the person forgets him/ her ... and train starts again...

It is always touchy to see relatives coming to drop other and then crying for them... but this time it was something different.. a sweet young couplle... they guy who was boarding the train and his gf was there to say him good bye... The moment was touchy as both were crying out loud... specially the girl...the guy kept promising... the guys came out of running train two times to hug her again...but she didn't stopped cying... I was wondering why he was leaving his dear one... why he can't stay after so much of the girl's indication to stay back... but who knows!!! the train started again.. I don't know it was an end or a begining... But while I am writing this I wonder either of the couple would have stopped crying and started "living life fully / enjoying life fully" without other... saying life has to go on... it is PAST!!

May be now they will forget each other like they would have met strage passenger in train of life.. but what matters is they cried sometimes together... and its upto them how they value it!!

A nice gjarati quote came to my mind with this.. "માછલી સમુદ્ર માં પોતાના વહેતા અનસુ ને ખોલી નથી સકતી !! " (means fish can not find its tears in the sea)

and that may be true for the relationships also... the couple may not even find their tears after couple of years

Any ways it was not an end for anyone... the one with daily routine will come back again tomorrow, hawkers has to be there to feed themselves.. .occassional passenger like me has to reach their destination... and train has to keep moving to make profit !! ultimately bottomline matters

sun will shine again tomorrow... with all new hope and opportunities... may be it will take some time... may be the eclipse last longer than expected ... but never loose hope...

People may come in life for a reason, a season, a purpose or anything else... at the end everybody's have their own tickets to travel!! Promises are no more important as they are not printed tickets... what matters is how we travel

A journey has to come to an end... to start new one!!

My review - PS - I Love you!!! movie/ book/ learnings from life

ધીમે રહી આ છેલ્લું એ આંસુ વહી જશે,
ભીનાશ નું એકાંત બસ બાકી રહી જશે,
અસ્તિત્વ એનું ઓગળી જશે અભાવ માં,
સ્મરણો વિનાની જિંદગી શેને સહી જશે.

Those who doesn'd understand gujarati, better skip it. Well its difficult to understand it... but the easier way to get it is to watch this move PS I Love you or read book ( Difficult option)

Well Its not about movie or book review, but its about weekend evening and how it ended with a nice story...

in fact it was usual weekend... very routine; which is not my type ...

Too hot to go out in ahmedabad, but later part of evening is among the most beautiful places i have ever seen...

Surprisingly I was passing through a road after a long time and I still could hear in my ears "Which is this road?"

Some things in life touch us such a way that we never ever forget how we felt about that... and it makes us smile ....

Any ways apart from these sentis... I could not grab my fav panipurivala without company...

but yea good thing about sunday evening is I can see satisfaction on my mother's fact after visiting temple with me... though it has lots of complaint and demand for god it feels good!!

welll i am not writing this out of story of "PS I Love you". In fact I planned to watch this movie as I dont want to spend time reading the book... and this was a good idea... but thanks to my dependence on TV channel it started too late...

I almost rushed to watch the movie after my friend/ x collegue has left our home... his meeting remind me many things... but being with him is far better than those good/ bad possessions of mind...

PLILU is very simple story... where a husband dies... but he made all provision for his wife to help her forget him...

In fact nobody can predict loneliness of other, but the guy has tried many good things...

The stodyline has many wonderful moments when the wife's emotions are getting touchy...

Though i m very much against senti movies I liked this one... where a wife's feeling was mixed up with her possible happiness...

Imagine a dying husband arranging for a wife's birthday party after his death... sending his wife his voice saying " I may not be there but I miss you so much" "PS ILU"

that was nicely presented...and very touchy...

On each new incidence throuwn by husband's letter the wife remembers his husband... and wonder why he had done that... ultimately his wife could't forget him at all...

Well I wonder if the love shown there really happens... where people dump their relationship and show off their happiness of new love / relationships... for self interest

Where "out of sight is always out of mind" I wonder who may bother to take care of his/her love after she/he dies...

Or once the partner dies / goes away how many of them really cares about other?

But this one was way above all... really answered many things in good sense...

At last the husband wanted his wife to be happy... and thats what he can do for his love...

I wonder what happened in End... I couldn't watch till end as being sincere son I had to switch off TV before it ends :) but the good thing was I had enough of thoughts and feelings to dream with....

Not to make it more complicated now... PSILU is a nicely told love story even for the one who don't like love stories...

The story is unique where begining is not well and end is well or not? please tell me if anyone knows it... ... I dont want to read book for that ....

I dont know the end... but the learning from the whole touching story was "There is no destiny than the one he forces himself on earth"

my date with first love - Happy mother's day

When we feel we are going to loose something; we realise value of it very much....


This is what I realised when I was standing in our kitchen waiting for LPG to go out of window...



If I would not have been there I can't imagine what would have happened... And that feeling is not good at all.

She was taking it casually.. but somehow deep inside me I was feeling cold.. not typical me...

most times we hold on to something when we feel we realise value of them... and thts wat i did it that day...

Going on full daate with mother is fun while she is waiting for a weekend and our time for a while... billions of dollars off to that...

well as its mother's day today by writing this I am just trying to make a note, out of all relationship, this reltion is not comparable...

only celebrating a day and wishin her happy mother's day doesn't give any meaning while all the time of her life is our part...

No wonder we take it for granted most times, as we know she is the one coming back to us. She is the one who will be there in good bad all times... no wonder we win loose do right or wrong... we look good or bad... whether we say it or not.. shes there trying to make up our life...

There are many respectable role of women, she may fail in any of them... but being mother is uncomparable...

Mother word is so powerful that we call our soil also as mother and even nature as mother nature... what else can you call it? nobody can be with you selflessly except ur mother...

Being single parent my mother has done it all she can and heads off to everything shes doing and will be doing for her childrens...

There is no definition no words that explains her... So wish you all happy mothers day.... take good care of your mothers...

Value what you have with her before you realise life without her.....

Thank you god, for being with us all time being my proud mother!!

loss or gain.. ?? learning from a mistake (passport!!)

It has been long since i have written anything... and this can be best place to start again...

well having a tough time travelling back to india... and specially after hectic work week with ur collegues i m waiting to jump on my bed at home...

so far most of the tour i had learning and this time it was hard one... loosing a passport is not a good thing abroad and i almost lost it... thanks to my partial presence of mind :) i realised it in couple of minutes that i left it somewhere in aircraft we left...

any ways good thing about that is I have realised value of it...
its how we feel about most thing/ people / phase of life.... .. we realise value of it when it is not there...
but what about things we do not realise value ... like old friends / ex friends etc whom u almost forgot??
with somewhat better opportunities in life people tend to forget earlier instances and people who has affected our life...

and here while sitiing alone I realise those who had affected my life ... i miss all of them...
Wonder why we loose someone... or something ... with our without our fault...

its been said that everyting roam around circle of life... one or other day u come across something u left or lost during ur life.... like my passport ??:) or like some of the old friends who keeps appearing back to realise u r still lovable to many people... all is not lost...

end is not always well... but in this case i got the passport.. .thanks to james from austrian airlines... and thanks to my dear old friend/ collegue who was with me and telling me "cool down mali jase"... :) be positive...

so agreed be positive.. .every dog has his day and being man we could have years :)

alls well that does not have end :) life gives meaning to all open instances....

Tree, Leaf and Wind - A Story of Love?

This is one of the best stories I have read, but its end was missing. I tried to make an end to the story.....


A story about Tree,Leaf and the Wind
Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn'task her to stay......

Tree


People call me "Tree".
I had dated 5 girls (really?? ask youself if its true at the end of story )when I was in Pre-U. There is one girl who I love alot but never dared to go after. She didn't have a pretty face, goodfigure or an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was thatI felt somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me (Or its other way ??). I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish. I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.

I felt that if she were my girl, she'd be mine ultimately & I didn'thave to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years. She watched me chase other girls (or running away from her), and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She was a good actor, and me a demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I did not want to know what caused her to cry (But I knew??). Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something & watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend did not like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on hercharacter she is not the type that will start the quarrel. However, I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend (Thats me foolish). The next day, she was laughing & jokingwith me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt but she did not know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my breakup. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the person was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School. I did not show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes. Once I reached home, I could not breathe. Tears rolled & I broke down. How many times have I seen her cry for the man who did not acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I read a SMS in my hp. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf_______________
People call me Leaf.
During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him & I know he liked me. But why won't he pursue me? (Or I am being impatience??)Since he loves me why he didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. After some time, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn't like me, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl, to ask him. (or I wonder why cant I? am I searching for something else?) Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me. (Or there will be someone like him ?)Because of this, I waited for him. Sometimes, I wondered if I should continue waiting. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for 3 years.
At the end of my 3rd year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He's like the cool & gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree. In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the leaf to a better land. Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled & didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or cause Tree didn't ask her to stay. (Or leaf didn't want to stay?)

Wind________________
Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree, so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I was transferred to this new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends, looking at him. When he talks with girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like, she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something missing. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accepts the note. The next day, she appeared & passes me a note and left.
It read, "Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away."
"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love toher. Although I know, she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her doorbell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay...

Moral_____________________

In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world.It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.
A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.
The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made. Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever...

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.
End:
Tree :
Tree does not want its leaf to go away, but it could not tell its leaf to stay back. Leaf loved the tree because tree set her free. Tree could not ask her to stay, but leaf could have stayed back. Tree always sets leaf free.

Leaf : Leaf is dependent on tree or it was learning from tree how to love. It could not believe what does a freedom means and could not even understand that Tree wanted her. Leaf was expecting to hear from tree she already knew by her feelings . Leaf's departure is because of wind's persuit and tree has tendency to set her free.

Wind : Wind's persuit is because leaf was dependent on tree. Leaf started enjoying blowing with the wind. Now wind is enjoying dependency of leaf. A blow of wind is not permenant, and leaf could not see tree again.

Love is not about winning or losing, asking to stay or leaving, judging who is right or wrong? In the end who stays, waits and keep loving matters!!!! Tree stands alone....
Happy reading!!!